i think my husband is an alcoholic. ive been inside copying pictures to cds when he comes in all staggering, i hear him in the bathroom i guess slamming stuff around, i hear him turn the fan on in the room, i go in there and hes on the floor all crooked against the pictures i have sitting against the wall. then he gets up and staggers to the ( Read more... )

today has been a very bad day. my son told me he didn't love me. :(
it made me cry. that is my greatest fear.

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blah. I'm at a Halloween bday costume party, I'm having fun, but it sux not having Jesse with me. he never wants to do anything really outside of the house. :(
lol and I'm sitting in the living room by myself like I always do. I'm such a loner.

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I just beat ffvii again since
7 yrs ago or so. in the past 6 months I replayed 7,9 and beat 13 and 13x2. I feel accomplished. I played all the quests and got all the trophies as well.

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I try to be nice to people who are having a shitty life and noone ever acknowledges it. ive always been good at giving people great advice and a shoulder to cry on. either they dont listen or they ignore my niceness. what's the point? I seem invisible. and honestly I've always felt that way. that's why I did so many stupid things. people noticed me ( Read more... )

u were never wrong about our fate. I was just to stupid to realize it. I wasn't ready for it, so I tried to avoid it. but thinking about it over and over I know that's where my true happiness lies. so with that said I will never know what true happiness is. I know what dealing with things and life is, but, that is all. nothing more and nothing less ( Read more... )

"Breathe Me"

Help, I have done it again I have been here many times before Hurt myself again today And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend Hold me, wrap me up Unfold me I am small I'm needy Warm me up And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found, Yeah I think that I might break I've ( Read more... )

I, I can't get these memories out of my mind, And some kind of madness has started to evolve. (Ma-ma-ma-ma-ma-ma-ma...) I, I tried so hard to let you go, But some kind of madness is swallowing me whole, yeah (Ma-ma-ma-ma-ma-ma-ma...)

I have finally seen the light, And I have finally realized, What you mean. Ooh oh oh

And now, I need to know is ( Read more... )

I can't seem to go to sleep. have a ton of things racing through my head. I have pain down deep, I need to release myself from it, but I do not know how. I come here to express myself, I know noone reads this. I've watched and noone updates this site. I need to let go of my hate, greif, anger, anxiety of things I cannot change. ie things that I've ( Read more... )

I had another dream about r.l. I wonder why I keep having them. they are so awesome. but they will never come to pass. maybe its a glimpse of how it would be now as I am more mature and grown up from my old ways. I wish I could've grown up sooner. I guess this feeling will never go away cuz its been 6 yrs now and I still feel for him. I have ( Read more... )